WALLFLOWER : I'M SORRY (A TOUCHING SUICIDE STORY😢)

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I'M SORRY

Good day everybody and welcome to another interesting Monday in your #1 blog.. I hope you are not mad at me for leaving you in suspense? (Winks).. Without further ado let's look at the complete content of Tammy's letter..
(If you missed the previous episode, do well to go back and check.. Thanks)

           TAMMY'S LETTER

"Hello Dad, mum or anyone who cares. By the time this letter gets to you I'd be long gone..
But I hope this conveys all my feelings to you..
To my mum:
Thanks a lot for giving birth to me.. Thanks for watching me grow and teaching me the right principles. But mum, why didn't you teach me not to die in silence? Why didn't you tell me to always air out my opinions?
Why'd you always shut me out whenever I had something to tell you?
Remember that day I came back crying and you told me you were too tired to listen to me? Well I was crying because Uncle Sam touched me (sexually) and when I told him I'd tell on him for trying to abuse me.. He threatened to kill me.. But I still tried to talk to you didn't I? All you did was shut me out!

Dad, Dad, Dad..
Your popular sentence:
" Can't you see I'm busy trynna put food on the table for this family!"
But what about me Dad?
I needed my dad to put me on the table too(laughs)..
Can you remember when you told me I was useless? I was just in Primary 3 Dad! You told me I'd never amount to anything just because your friends son (James) came first position In the school 100 metres race.. But I always did pass James in class.. And you knew it..
Can you also remember when you told me I was so 'fat' and couldn't I be more fit?
Or my favourite "Let's see what becomes of you in a few years.. You don't even have friends!"
But I had friends Dad.. I just couldn't bring them home cos all you did was compare me to them.. Oh! It hurt so bad Dad..
Now remember when I was giving my speech on my graduation day?
I looked everywhere for you..
I saw parents cheering and hugging their kids, I saw them cheering when I came upstage.. But all I wanted was to see you and mum..
Even if just for a sec.. But then all you told me when I told you I was made valedictorian was:
"With which brain"
You shattered me Dad!

To my Mum, Dad, friends, coursemates and anyone else reading this letter..
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I wasn't good enough
I'm sorry I was too quiet
I'm sorry I shut you out
I'm sorry I was always reading to drown out my pain and had no time to hang out with you
I'm sorry I haven't got Abs
I'm sorry all I had going was a good brain..
I'm sorry I didn't let you see what was wrong
I'm sorry I always hid myself
I'm sorry I never held on
But most of all I'm sorry I was your child, your friend or anything..
Tell Principal Jackson that I'll remember him..
And I hope my story serves as a lesson to everyone..
Don't cry for me..
I know the way I'm going and in ready for whatever I face..
I'm sorry"

When he finished reading the letter, there was no dried eye in the hall.. We all wailed like babies..
But It was too late!
The hushed whispers started going round:
"But he always wore a smile" "Tammy could never do this, its a prank"..

But the question..
Did Tammy really commit suicide?
Or we killed him!
Who is Tammy?
Tammy's your neighbours son
Tammy's your son
Tammy's your cousin
Tammy's that boy you see in the street..
Tammy is everywhere but we are just too blind or inconsiderate to see Tammy..


I hope this opens our eyes..
Everyone is unique, beautiful, special.. Do not judge, compare or berate anyone..
We are all something but none of us is everything..
And please to all those reading this message..
If you feel depressed 'DO NOT BE QUIET!'. Please talk to someone.. Do not quit.. Suicide is not the answer..
There are a million people who love you..
You are not alone!


I hope this gets to someone today.. Do well to share with your friends and families..

Tune in next week for another story on the Anthology "I'M SORRY"
Do have an excellent week everyone.. Much love !

Posy by: Precious .E. Michael
Fb: Wallflower
IG: @shes_Adaiba

Comments

  1. Sophie Speaks17 September 2018 at 12:04

    I officially love you. Apt. True as the morning dew!!

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  2. Grey1 February 2020 at 20:16

    Just plain beautiful! And the lessons learnt invaluable. Thanks Wallflower! I love you!

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  3. Wallflower26 February 2020 at 09:01

    I love you too @Sophie speaks and @Grey
    Thank you so much

    ReplyDelete

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